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.Friday, November 26, 2004 ' 9:38 PM Y

kelly clarkson-breakaway~

really lik tis song frm princess diaries 2 alot wor~ post da lyrics here~
Artist: Kelly Clarkson Song: Breakaway
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

(Chorus:)
I'll spread my wings and
I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

(Chorus)

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging in revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

yours truly ;

.Thursday, November 25, 2004 ' 10:11 AM Y

dedicated to amy.

okie. hmm.. i hope amy sees this entry. amy.. i have read your recent entries and i have some thoughts i wish to voice out. do u really think you do not have any friends? then can i ask you, what is jie ying and me to you? i have known you for almost four years and have come to be even ur mama, and now you said you do not have any friends. i m very sad to see your entries.

i just want to tell you. if you think you have no friends at all, you are very wrong. jie ying and i have always regard you as a friend of ours. we do care about you. and is there any one time we refuse to hear your sad thoughts? is there any time i told you not to confide in me? if i'm not wrong, i never ever say that before isn't it? and i can see that jie ying really does cares for you, she will always tell me about how worried she is for you after reading your entries.

please don't feel that no one understands you, no one cares about you. sometimes, you have to understand that you are not the only person who undergoes alot of bad happenings. yes, you do have some really bad things happening to you, but please know that, you are not the only person k? all of us undergo bad happenings and the only way we can grow up is to overcome whatever obstacles, to think to the bright side, to try your best to solve problems and to confide in friends and ask for advices. jie ying and me has always been here, ready to hear your problems and ready to give you advices. if you want your friends to understand you, the first step is to open yourself to your friends isn't it? don't worry. we, as your friends, are not some bad people who will purposefully make things worse for you isn't it?

hmm.. i can see from your entries that you are trying to help your friends, becca and stan. you have tried your best, you have done anything you could, the rest is up to them le isn't it? they can't always depend on you to help them solve whatever problems isn't it? so please don't carry all the responsibilites, it is too heavy for you, you do have your own problems as well. yes, you can help them out but the rest is up to they themselves, k?

i hope this entries will cheer you up and make you realise that you do have friends. even if your other friends do not want you, there is still jie ying and me k? please do take care of yourself and your health, i do not wish my nu-er will fall sick, k? *smiles*

yours truly ;

. ' 8:25 AM Y

toothacheeeeee!!!!

boohoohoo~~~~ my tooth is aching againnnn.... after soooo mani days... painnnnnnnnnnnn...... =~~~~~~~~~~~~ guess is cos i ate too much fried food recently le. hmm.. today go out cannot eat fried food le or else i will faint of painfulness. kaoz.. really beri pain seh.. ahhhhh.. latta go out beri pain how? >.<"

yours truly ;

.Tuesday, November 23, 2004 ' 4:22 PM Y

rebonded hair~

whopeee~ jus now go rebond my hair~~ den got cut fringe. hmm.. beri strange nehx~ but nvm. i m satisfied wif my rebonded hairrr~ =p yipeee~

yours truly ;

.Monday, November 22, 2004 ' 8:49 PM Y

going out these few days~

these few days went out alot. first wif jie ying to seletar country club, den wif jie ying to orchard, thomsom plaza den her home den today wif hew to orchard, bugis n yishun gv. i spent lik hmm.. $100+ in these few days. =p n no, i din buy any prom stuff yet. =p broke le broke le. =p

today went out wif hew to look for nice t-shirts so went orchard first, nv c any nice t-shirts so pondering whether to go queensway or bugis n we decided on bugis n yep~ it was a rite decision. dere r lotsa nice t-shirts dere~ at Edge. den i bought a blue tee wif a person farting (=p), hew bought a blue tee wif "god is not free, may i help u?" den got a devil face on it de. both t-shirts beri nice~ den we went yishun gv watched 4.15pm princess diaries 2. it was a niceeee movie~ worth it to watch nor. den after tt went home le. i m certain hew is slping now. =p she said she gonna slp frm 7-10pm den wake up eat dinner. >_< wat a nice time to eat dinner. =p

nice day out today but i m tiredddddd~

yours truly ;

. ' 8:46 PM Y

lalaaa~

1. Where have you been an hour ago?jus stepped into home frm going out wif hew!
2. state your FULL name.soh ruo han
3. do you like your name?can nor, okie wif it.
4. can you remember what you did on the first day of your school?in sec 1, hang out wif in ing on first day of sch. cos in my class, only noe her ma, same p sch~
5. what do you want to be ten years from now?hmm.. slacking? =p actually i dunno. =p
6. what did u feel upon receiving surveys like these?nth. cos i only did em when i sian n i oways beri sian de so oways do de. =p
8. do u think u could live without a pc?hmm.. can. but beri hard wor..
9. do u consider urself a generous person?hmm.. so-so ba.
10. have you ever eaten any exotic food?hmm.. dun hav? not sure wor.
11. what is the last illness that you have?toothache! exam oways will de. n all tt p sch's dentist's faulttt =p
12. do you like listening to rap music?some r nice nor.
13. have you ever thought of driving the train at MRT?ah? dun understand da qn. how to drive da trian at MRT when MRT is a train?
14. what did you do last November 1 2003?hmm.. out most part of da day? cos after exam ma.
15. which do you prefer? sunny or rainy days?depends on my mood nor. sunny when gd mood. rainy when bad mood so can drench myself.
16. when was the last time you browsed the holy book?hmm.. nv b4 wor.
17. what perfumes do you like?nice-smelling de nor.
18. what is the brand of your first wristwatch?hmm.. baby-g.
19. look behind you? what do you see?my letter-putting hanger~
20.Something about the person who gave you this?hmm.. cheryl was da one. my girl guides fren, straightfwd ger nor.
21. do you sing while you are taking a bath?sometimes! =p
22. how many bf/gf's you already had b4?1 bf.
23. your last dream that you remembered?last nite's. beri beri beri weird dream. dunno y these peeps get into my dream oso. =p
24. what you usually say when you meet a friend that you have not met for a very long time?hello~ how hav u been~?
25. do you agree on the saying to 4giv is to 4get?yep.. i oways do tt.
26. can you ride on a bicycle?nahx.. =~~ wan learnnn~
27. last thing you held before using the computer?hmm.. my comb!
28.wHerE is that place u always dreamed of?hmm.. i dreamt of alot of places b4. no specific place de.
29. When was the last time your tears fall?ytd.. when i tink of bad memories..
30. What do you wanna say to the person reading this?hmm.. hey~ =p

yours truly ;

.Saturday, November 20, 2004 ' 11:19 PM Y

last last last~

[Last ] letter of ur FULL name?n. ruo han ma.
[ Last ] thing you ate?hmm.. i forgot. lolx~
[ Last ] thing u drink?water.
[ Last ] song you listen?fan yi chen - zai zhe li fen shou, nice~
[ Last ] thing you did?ans da qn above? lolx~ hmm.. chatting nor.
[ Last ] movie you watched?cinderella story n one missed call. >_< behind time. cannot! mus go watch movie soon. =p shark tale!!!
[ Last ] TV show you watch?hmm.. ytd's s'pore idol.
[ Last ] person you have a crush on?crush was lik so long ago? if ask fell for, den will be not long ago.
[ Last ] person who sent you a sms?my kor kor.
[ Last ] time you clean your room?dun own a rm.
[ Last ] CD you bought?5566's~
[ Last ] word you said?hmm.. i forgot.
[ Last ] time you cried?ytd morn, while watching xue tian shi's first epi. sooo touching!
[ Last ] person who you chat with online with?my coussie, qian.
[ Last ] person u add onto ur list?forgot. but can't add or accept le, full le.
[ Last ] person you bit?dun go arnd biting peeps. lolx~
[ Last ] website you went?my blog!
[ Last ] time you shop?ytd!
[ Last ] person you hate?not sure is hate anot..
[ Last ] person u tink of?hmm.. my coussie cos jus chat wif her.
[ Last ] time u fell sick?everyday during Os. >_< exam oways sick de..
[ Last ] person u would wan to see now?u mean as in wun wan to see is it? alot wor.. bring bac bad memories de nor.
[ Last ] person u'd ever talk to?oso mean as in dun wan talk to is it? den same ans as above.
[ Last ] thing u wanna see on ur result slip?failed!
[ Last ] no. of ur hp?3
[ Last ] survey you did?tis? lolx~ no nar.. u ownself c nor.
[ Last ] words?"i got chance i will online de". lolx~ to my coussie.

yours truly ;

. ' 11:03 PM Y

surveyyyy~

What would you do if...
Your crush suddenly asks you out?` of cos go nar. lolx~ who wun wan? =p
-You walk into an elevator and see a couplemaking out?` walk out immediately.
-Your parents had another baby?` hmm.. will lurve to hav a smaller sibling, but beta dun now, not safe for my parents, too old to hav baby le.
-You're trapped in a building about to explode?` hmm.. if i not in gd mood tt day, stay dere n wait for death. if in gd mood tt day, run everywhere to look for a escape route.
-You were granted one wish?` be so happi~-Aliens invaded earth?` wait for death. lolx~
-A guy (or girl if you're a guy) [stranger] suddenly kissed you?` push him away n go "wat da hell u doing?!" =p
-You won a date with your celeb crush?` grab da chance n ask him for contacts. heh~
-You were given a blue car?` hmm.. learn how to drive?
-Your boyfriend (girlfriend if you're a guy) breaks up with you?` cry for a while den pretend okie but actually still feel hurt.
-You win a million dollars.` give to mama n papa den save n spend da rest~
-Someone gives you flowers?` be soooooo happi. experienced b4 le. =p
-You recieve a love letter in your locker?` read nar.
-You fail your exam?` bad mood da whole day den nx day nth le. lolx~ unless it is Os nar. mayb i will cry for 1 whole month if i fail Os? lolx~
-You get first in class?` nth. i dun go arnd bragging.
-Your computer crashes?` misses it alot n beg my dad to repair it.
-You get fired.` slack a few days den find job again.
-Your best friend betrays you` hmm.. jus let it pass n dun be frens wif her anymore.
-You had to choose between your boyfriend(girlfriend if you're a guy) and your best friend?` hmm.. dunno. nv experience hav to choose lidat de.
- you were paid fifty dollars for this surey?` do tis survey a million times. lolx~ so can get more $$~

yours truly ;

.Friday, November 19, 2004 ' 11:33 PM Y

s'pore idol results

watched s'pore idol jus now. n sly n taufik r in!!! yay!!!! =p but kinda sad scene when oli is announced out nor. hmm.. but sly n taufik r in!!! =p

yours truly ;

. ' 7:55 PM Y

happi happi~~

*smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* =p lolx~~ toopid hew. finished their chem exam immediately called me n screamed into my ears, " ruo han!! me finished Os le!!! " >.<" wei wei~ me ytd already finished le nor~ u today den finished de nor. lolx~ hao nar hao nar, enjoy urself after Os hor. jan start sch le. =p *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* *smack hew* lolxxxxxx~

today beriiiiiiiiiiiii happiiiiiiiii~ went to orchard, thomson plaza n jie ying's hse. went Far East, walked beri long, den took alot of neoprints oso. lolx~ den ate Spicy Ramen for lunch, spicy till both of us dere crying. lolx~ but beri delicious~~ den went thomson plaza n saw jie ying's Him. lolx~ yea nar. he is quite good looking nor. good eyesight, my sis. lolx~ den went jie ying's hse hang out. i lurve hanging out at her hse ah, very relaxing. den she did her masterpiece ( our secret~ ), i lurveee it so much~ dun care, sis, u mus teach me how to do. =p

latta s'pore idol results will be out.. so nervous. who will get in seh? i m sure taufik will cos his performances ytd were beriiiii gd. but sly's performances were disappointing but i still hope he gets in instead of olinda nar. jie ying today kuang sms voted for sly. lolx~ she really wants him to get in seh. well.. soon soon. we will see who continues. olinda or sly?

weeee~~ so happi~~~

Compared to friendship, gold is dirt~

yours truly ;

. ' 9:42 AM Y

two..

1. TWO NAMES YOU GO BY:- ruo han
- han
2. TWO THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUTYOURSELF:- sensitive
- pessimistic
3. TWO THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:- keep having a beri strange feeling, why??
- why mus we go to sch
4. TWO THINGS THAT SCARE YOU- loneliness.
- ghosttt
5. TWO THINGS U NEED EVERYDAY:- handphone
- food & water
6.TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE BRANDS:- hmm.. dun go for brands seh. nice can le
7. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS @ THEMOMENT:- jay - jie kou
- jay - an jing
8. TWO PERSONS YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH- jie ying
- fen
9. TWO THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:- study
- save money
10. TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:- swimming
- shopping
11. TWO THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:- money
- long break
12. TWO CAREERS (BUSINESS) YOU'RECONSIDERING:- haven go find job, but wan try shopping centres. or if can't find, slack can le. lolx~
13. TWO PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:- new-zealand
- japan
14. WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW :- slack a while den prepare go out shop wif jie ying le
- thinking of da first epi of snow angel i jus watched, first epi i cried lik dunno wat le. soooo touching~

yours truly ;

.Thursday, November 18, 2004 ' 8:12 PM Y

seletar cc~

today went seletar country club wif jie ying. met at 1pm at yishun control station. den went long john eat lunch. den after tt go take taxi le. cos da country club is so deep inside tt if u walk dere, u will die. lolx~ da taxi driver drove soooo slow, den when we reached dere, jie ying gave him a $50 note, den he showed us tt toopid face n asked rudely,"got smaller note anot?" >.<" wat da.. but we din let him spoil our day.

den when reached, signed in, took towel, locker key den go change into swimming costume den go swimmm~ swimm~ swimm~~ my fav sportttt~ lolx~ felt so carefree down dere~ den we relaxed at da pool, talked abt alot of tings den went to 2 jacuzzi. one jacuzzi was filled wif leaves. >.<" cos tree directly above. den swam for 2 hrs~ sun was shinning on our bodies all da while. den went bathe, den go gym. did some exercises. den bathe again. den already 6+pm le. den go eat dere den took taxi to yishun control station le.

den when we reached dere, i sent jie ying to da bus interchange ( see, i so gd. lolx~ ), den took mrt n bus home le. den on da bus, very funni, i was standing at da centre da round round ting ma, den my jie fu lik sitting rite in front of me den i nv noticed. lolx~ den when halfway, saw him den go "eh!" lolx~ blind me. reached home, bathe again, den realised my shoulders n face damn red, more red dan at dere, den touched my shoulders, went "ouch!" sunburnt. >.<" lidat mon how to go wild wild wet seh..

tmr mayb going to orchard wif jie ying. heh~ we still got one paper on mon but who cares~? exam is finished for me. lolx~ i m sooooo tireddddd, BUT contented~~

jus watched s'pore idol. hmm.. kinda disappointed wif sly's performances today. not nice. i enjoyed taufik's performance alot more today. but still hope taufik n sly got in instead of olinda nar.

cos we lost it all, nothing lasts forever..

yours truly ;

.Wednesday, November 17, 2004 ' 5:16 PM Y

today's happening.

dunno wat is happening to da toopid tagboard again. everytime got prob de. >.<" today geog hmm.. shld be can ba.. but when i discussed wif my jie fu, yan xi when we went home jus now, heard all his ans, diaoz.. so different. n his sounds so logical, mine is total bullshit. >.<" die le.. iya, dun wan tink abt it. tink le will sad.

jus now after geog paper, went to canteen sit down chat chat wif fen dey all while waiting for jie ying to finish her paper. den talked abt prom, den cos got alittle communication prob wif jo last time, tot she not sitting wif me at prom n i m supposed to be wif jie ying dey all, so jo lik alittle buay song lidat. but hor.. wat can i do rite?

den after tt, jie ying came down. den we walked to chong pang mac to study. when we reached dere, none of da guys hav reached. den inside got a lot of ai peeps. got hui shan, tammie, yen, serene, amy, keng ling, shaun n ee siong den still got who i forgot le. den we lik no place sit so stand dere. den after tt, nigel, sai how n kelvin came. den we sat down. first time wif em so i dunno wat to say. =p but their jokes can make u luff till stomachache de, esp nigel's. den dey bought a 3 in 1 set meal den jie ying tell me eat so i bu ke qi nor. lolx~ den after we ate finish, me n jie ying went to another table to start studying. den after tt nigel n sai how went to study at nigel's aunt's hse cos his aunt teach POA. den kelvin dunno go where.

den while doing halfway, yan xi came join us den do do do. dey really very li hai, ans all da qns i dunno. talked alot oso den me n jie ying got talk abt wat to do after tmr's paper n on fri. =p our paper finish on mon nehx. =p den after tt, yan xi's fren, so-called ah bui came. den yan xi n him played bb, me n jie ying chatted. den after tt went home le. cos yan xi n me live jus one rd away, went home together. at first quite gan ga cos nth to say den began to talk abt today's paper. haix.. bad memories. =p den after tt talk abt his frens. got to noe nigel n sai how beta thru him le. now, i dunno how will my a maths be tmr. hmm.. pray hard hard~ =p mon end le!!!!!! lolx~

used to it. so used to it tt i m numb.

yours truly ;

.Tuesday, November 16, 2004 ' 3:51 PM Y

love? hah!

first time. it was first time in my life i saw my bro cry until lidat. wheneva he cried, it was cos he was too angry wif someting. but tis time, cos of love.. his gf asked for a small period of break btween em, n my bro gave in, hoping everyting will be fine after tt. but when she told me she dunno if she still loved him anot n she dun miss him unless she wanted to, he saw wat she typed n decided to hav a talk wif her. dey talked n she told him she wanted her freedom.. he cldn't do anyting but to break up. he cried. i cld jus stand dere n watched. he confided in me alot of tings.

den da nx day, he decided to look her up at her hse. she refused to come down. he can't do anyting but to walk away.. he went to find his frens to pour all da troubles away. den when he reached home, he pretended nth has happened, cos my parents din noe anyting. den when he reached his rm, he called me in. den he confided in me again. he smsed her telling her lotsa tings only to get her reply few hrs latta. i still din slp n i saw him looking very upset after he read da sms. asked him wat happened. try to get his hp frm him. he refused to give it to me. den when i was abt to get onto bed. he came into my slping rm n looked for me. i asked him what happened den he walked away again, looking so weak.

i went to his rm n looked for him n he finally showed me his hp. "i dun love u anymore. dun come n find me or bother my frens anymore. i hav been very patient wif u, holding my temper." da sms read someting lidat. den he cried again. i looked at him, dunno wat to do. den he grabbed me n cried on my shoulder. i cldn't do anyting but to hug him n gave him my shoulder. first time in 16 yrs of my life, my bro cried on my shoulder. i guessed he was really hurt. den he told me to go slp, i stayed awhile n went bac to my rm. i din slp. i smsed his gf. 5 smses. telling her how cruel she is. we smsed for a while. she told me her feelings. but after those smses, i still feel unfair for my bro. he can't forget her 2 yrs ago cos she refused to talk to him face to face. 2 yrs latta, she came bac n looked for him. my bro accepted her bac in his life willinglly cos he still love her alot. now she lidat n still refused to talk face to face. how can he forget her tis way den?

she told me she loves freedom. wat i told her is, "nx time, when u tink u r ready to tear down ur wings n enter da love cage, prepared to lose ur single life's freedom, den go n love someone, or else dun eva enter a love cage n call out for freedom." i told her nv to come bac n look for my bro anymore. she said family is 1st, frens 2nd n bf 3rd. she said she love her family n frens more than her bf. i told her not to be even frens wif my bro anymore, or else he wun be able to withstand a stronger love. she said she dun wan lose me as a fren. but i dun tink i can continue being a fren of hers. after seeing tt sad look on my bro's face tis few days. after seeing his tears.. no. i dun tink i can.

i wonder y my bro n i r borned to be chi qing. i not trying to brag or wat here. but we r. i can like a person for very long, as long as 3 yrs. n i can continue liking him even if he has hurt me alot. even if he dun care anymore. yu, i can't tell u my feelings now cos i m unsure. i dun wish it will affect my studies but after Os, i will hav time to tink. even if i still lik him, lik wat i said, i dun wish to hear anymore tings abt him, i dun wish to noe his ongoings, cos i noe if i still lik him, tis is da only way i can completely forget abt him. i can't wait to get out of ai, cos alot of tings in tis sch reminds me of him. alot of peeps. even his previous cca. =\ dun drift apart frm him cos of me if u r tinking to do so, dere's not a nid. i doubt we r even frens anymore. u can tell him wat i said here, i dun care anymore. if he not happy wif me, come scold me all he can. i m numb anyway.

i m beginning to doubt love after so mani tings tt hav happened to me n da peeps arnd me.

dun go into a love cage until u r ready to tear down ur wings n stay inside foreva..

yours truly ;

.Sunday, November 14, 2004 ' 10:06 PM Y

finally done!~

ah.. finally got da archives ting done. understand ade's advice n heed it n finally get it to look nicer, although da talking craps ting is outside of da box. =b 8 more days to end of Os.. prom n chalet is coming up.. can't wait seh~ =b

yours truly ;

.Saturday, November 13, 2004 ' 6:16 PM Y

new template

jus change a new template. come across it n it reminded me of a story i hav seen in friendster bulletin. hmm.. i wil summarize here for those who dunno.

dere was once a ger n a boy. da boy was a flirt even though he n da ger r together. but da ger always din seem to mind. da ger wld run out to da rain and play everytime it rained, but she refused to let da boy join her even though he always wanted to. one day, da boy decided to break up wif her. she cldn't do anyting but to agree to break up. da boy requested for one last qn. "why did u refuse to let me join u everytime u play in da rain? he asked. she replied, "because i didn't want you to know i was crying.."

touching eh..? so when i came across tis template. immediately lik it le nor. but somehow i jus cant fix all da archives into da box. grrr..

yours truly ;

. ' 1:39 PM Y

lalaa~

WHO
.. makes u smile`._ my frens.. my family.
.. pays your cellphone bills`._ myself. dad refuses to help me pay. say i mus be responsible for wat i spent. >_<
.. do you think loves you`._ my family.
.. do you want to slap`._ someone. but i wun do tt.
.. is the first on your phonebook`._ aaron.

WHAT
.. don't u like about in this life`._ those big fake smiles n stupid lies.
.. do you want to do right now`._ go to da beach n pour out my troubles.
.. is it that makes u smile`._ hmm.. alot of tings. i smile at da slightest ting n frown at da slightest ting as well.
.. bothers you`._ exams. some frens prob.
.. color signifies your personality`._ black. mysterious. lolx~
.. do you like in your house`._ com. bed.

WHEN
.. is your birthday`._ 22nd july
.. did you last saw ur school`._ wed. take da freaking bio paper.
.. will you get serious with your life`._ i m already serious abt it.
.. do you think will there be peace`._ dere will nv be peace. wif those wars.
.. did you do your last prank`._ long time nv le nor.

WHERE
.. do you live`._ marsiling.
.. is your school located`._ yishun.
.. do you hang-out the most`._ shopping malls. beaches.
.. were you born`._ singapore
.. do you plan to have your end of year holidays?`._ s'pore. =b
.. are you now`._ home

HOW
.. would u define love`._ letting da person u love free, if he/she comes bac to u, he/she is urs, if nv, it was nv meant to be. tis is wat my kor kor taught me, which is very true.
.. do u want ur burial to be`._ peaceful. not a nid to be grand.
.. freaky can you get`._ i seldom get freaky.
.. often do you listen to music`._ everyday.
.. do you live your life`._ complicated yet simple.
.. interesting are you`._ not at all.

i can jus pick up da pieces, but to u, tis means nth, nth at all..

yours truly ;

.Friday, November 12, 2004 ' 4:29 PM Y

meeee~

1) brand of ur hp? sony ericsson t630. wan change~
2) what'll you do if you see ur gf/bf hugging a guy/girl? first. find out why he hug den do wateva i shld do nor. latta jus frens hug den misunderstand nehx?
3) have a gf/bf? nahx.
4) have ur own room? dun hav. wan to~
5) fav pet? hmm.. dun own one. but wan to. lik alot of animals wor.
6) one thing you cant live w/o? my family
7) where do you live? marsiling
8) what would you do if sumone tells you he/she likes you? it depends on whether i lik him anot nar. but if i dun, still can be frens ma.
9) how are you feelin n0w? sick n tired.
10) where do you hangout? shopping malls.. beach..
11)what are you good at? crapping. listening to peep's prob.
12) what is it bout a person you can't stand? backstabbing. bitching
13) what do you want? to noe someone who cares.
14) a word that describes you? sensitive.
15) what is ur dream? to live happily.
16) day/nite? nite.
17) sunset/sunrise?sunrise.
18) like a romantic bf/gf? of cos. but not too nar. or else cant stand. =b
19) what is it bout the opposite gender that attracts you? character.
20) are you an independent person? not really.
21) do you lyke sch? when my frens r wif me.
22) are you stubborn? sometimes.
23) believe in God? yep.24) ur favourite sport? swimminggg~
25) believe in fate? yep. i do.
26) get pissed off easily? sometimes.
27) like ur parents? yepp~
28) are ya a materialistic person? nahx.
29) believe in lurve? yea.
30) will you get a tattoo? nahx.
31) smoke? nahx.. i wun. eva.
32) club / pub? hmm.. both nv go b4. so dunno.
33) will you forgive ur gf/bf if he cheats on you? it depends on wat he cheat me on.
34) will you expect ur gf/bf to forgive you? it depends on wat i hav done wrong.
35) were you on a trip recently? nahx.. on Os trip.
36) fav country? wan go new zealand n japan~
37) are you impatient? sometimes.
38) which brands? any.
39) do ya organise parties often? nahx..
40) do ya have good friends? yep!
41) do ya think you r good looking? not at all.
42) do you care abt looks? nahx.
43) do you think that you're a good gf/bf? dun hav one.
44) do you use vulgarities? sometimes.
45) do you quarrel wiv pple easily? nahx. i usually give in.
46) are you forgiving? yep.
47) do you get hurt easily? yea..
48) do you prefer guys wif long/short hair? short.
49) do you prefer girls wif long/short hair? hmm.. depends. some look good in short, lik hew's!
50) is ur hair colored? nahx.
51) are you a romantic partner? dunno.
52) do you wear a watch? nahx.
53) what color clothes do you lyke?baby pink n blue. white n black.
54) will you chose love or money? love.
55) do you prefer slp or eat? slp.
56) white or black? hmm.. both lik nehx..
57) pink or red? pink.
58) fav flower? lavender n pink rosesss~
59) do you lyke to receive flowers? yep!!! i was so happy when hew gave me n phy.
60) fav perfume? hmm.. alot wor.
61) favourite type of music? i listen to anyting nice.
62) favourite past time? online chatting, blogging, going out, reading storybks, swimming blah blah..

Breakdown. I can't take this. I need somewhere to go. I need you. I'm so restless. I don't know what to do..

yours truly ;

. ' 4:19 PM Y

me!

1. who are you?__* ruo han.
2. who stands in your heart now?__* no one? dunno.
3. who are you missing?__* alot of peeps wor~ all my frens ah.. my cousin ah~ blah blah blah..
4. who is your stead now?__* dun hav.
5. who are you thinking now?__* jay~ =b concert coming soon~!
6. who do you want to spend life 4ever with?__* my family members n my future husband n children.
7. who do you hate most?__* myself.
8. who are you staying with now?__* ah ma, papa, mama n kor kor.
9. who did you first met with special one?__* shld be when ba. hmm.. special one? u mean when i first fall for someone? p 5.
10. who is the one you want to meet?__* my special one.
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1. when is your birthday?__* 22/07/1988
2. when is your first love?__* p 5 when i first fall for someone. sec 2 when i m first wif someone.
3. when is your first kiss?__* hmm.. my mama n my papa got kissed me b4 so many times when i small.
4.when is your closest friend b'day?__* got alot of closest frens wor.
5. when do you feel happy?__* when i m wif someone who i m comfortable wif.
6. when will you feel stress and depress?__* during examsssss..
7. when will you listen to a sad song?__* wheneva i lik. but most of da times is when i sad.
8. when do you listen to techno?__* anytime i lik.
9. when there is trouble, who do you turn to?__* jie ying sis.
10. when there is happiness who do you wanna share with?__* my loved ones.
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1. where do you stay?__* marsiling.
2. where is the last place u went?__* causeway pt.
3. where is the place that has lots of memories?__* sch.
4. where is the first place you kissed?__* at home. by mama n papa.
5. where is the place you feel relax?__* as long as i m wif someone i m comfortable wif, i will feel relaxed.
6. where is the place you go wen you are sad?__* rm n beach.
7. where do you go wen you are angry?__* rm. bang tings here n dere.
8. where do you go often?__* recently home. >.<"
9. where do you study at?__* ahmad ibrahim sec
10. where u work at?__* haven go find. after Os nor.
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1. what is ur age?__* 16.
2. what are u doing now?__* slacking. chatting.
3. what are u wearing now?__* tshirt n short.
4. what are u thinking of now?__* can i keep slack?
5. what is ur fav song?__* jay's jie kou.
6. what is love to u?__* hmm.. someting tt can make u feel happy, secured n someting u r willing to sacriface anyting for.
7. what is important in a relationship to u?__* care n understanding.
8. what is family to u?__* most impt people in my life.
9. what is most important to you?__* to live happily. but sadly, i still haven reach tis goal.
10. who or wat do u wish fer most now?__* someone who cares.
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1. how are you?__* stressed up.
2. how do you control your temper?__* i dun. =b when i not happy, it shows.
3. how often do you smoke?__* i dun smoke...
4. how often you cry?__* too often.
5. how often do you lose temper?__* when someting gets on my nerves.
6. how u solve ur problem when it came to u?__* pretend nth happened.
7. how many close fren do u haf?__* hmm.. lemme count.. 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. 6.. 7.. 8..yep 8! fen, sheena, jie ying, yu, cai yun, phy, hew n jo!
8. how close are u to them?__* all these. i always confide in n dey oso confide in me de. den feel most comfortable arnd dem.
9. how are u feeling now?__* sick n tired.
10. how cheerful are u?__* hmm.. depends on who i m wif.

u dunno wat it's lik, to be lik me..

yours truly ;

.Wednesday, November 10, 2004 ' 8:58 PM Y

update update~

diaoz.. i jus typed a long entry. n dunno y. can't post. >.<" so hav to retype. diaoz.. hmm.. i was saying abt Os. s.s was fine although i screwed up on da last SBQ. din even noe it was a usefulness qn. >.<" el paper. compo was tough. all da topics not easy. i considered for abt 1o min den decided on "both parents shld go work when their children are still very young". i wrote very little pts. hope da tcher wun buay song i wrote so little pts nor. da letter to uncle de was okie nor. i dun hav time to read it over again so dunno can anot seh. da 2 compo passages were understandable but da qns quite tough. summary shld be okie?

den physics paper is nx, quite tough ah. all da frictional force qns i dunno how to do. so dunno. hope can ba. den come emaths paper 1, was fine nor, except for a few careless mistakes here n dere. den come amaths paper 1......... i was da only person who found great difficulties doing it. >.<" others all tink can. >.<" my amaths really gone le nar. den come emaths paper 2. hmm.. dunno nehx. tink can ba. den chem paper. at least it was easier than physics ba. tink so nor. dunno. den come today bio.......... screw cambridgeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. although mcq was fine, paper 2 was so damn hard. nv did a paper tis tough b4. >.<" den i bullshit my way frm qn 1 to 8, which is da whole paper >.<" now my amaths is screwed n my bio as well. >.<" wat can i take for my last l1r5 sub. >.<" tink is bio btween tis 2 le nor. i tink my bio at least beta dan amaths. but my l1r5 sure gone le... >.<" screw cambridgeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

now, is hols for 1 wk cos of malay n indian new years. i dun care. gonna rest for 1 or 2 days den study for geog, amaths paper 2(actually dun nid study cos no use) n sci mcq. i m so sick of tis toopid Os. ate 14 panadols. n is all cos of toothache. >.<" my toothache is since sec 1 de. everytime exams will hav de. den today me go dentist, da dentist say i got 2 special teeth got someting poke out de den got broken den become lidat. den when he found out frm my mama is p sch dentist purposely go remove de, he got shocked. den said wat da dentist doing, my teeth lidat cos da nerve got affected when da dentist go remove. den he said if after Os, my teeth still not okie, den mus operate le. >.<" sure pain pain de!! he say mus few days in a row somemore. >.<" den $250++ somemore. >.<" diaozzzzz... screw tt p sch dentist. =b

can't wait for Os to end. 22nd!! prom!! =b can't wait~~ going to search for jobs after Os oso. but who wan hire someone who is going to work for 1 mth only.. >.<" so considering wan go first 3 mths jc anot nor..

In a perfect world, this could never happen. In a perfect world, you'd still be here..

yours truly ;

. ' 8:19 PM Y

touching!

Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the parkone night....
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world
Jasmine: I think so...All of my friends haveboyfriends and we are only the 2 persons left inthis world with out any special person in our life
Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: i'll be your girl friend for 30 days and youwill be my boy friend
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact i don't havenothing to do much this following weeks...
DAY 1:
They watch their first movie and they both touchedin a romantic film
DAY 4:
They went to the beach and have a picnic...Danieland Jasmine have their quality time together
DAY 12:
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they rideon a Horror House....Jasmine was scared andshe touched Daniel's hand but she touchedsomeone else's hand and they both laughed...
DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road and theyasked for their future advice and the fortune tellersaid: "My darling, Please don't waste the time ofyour life...SPend the rest of your time togetherhappily" Then tears flow out from the teller's eyes
DAY 20:
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and theysaw a meteor...Jasmine mumbled something
DAY 28:
They sat on the bus and because of a bumby roadJasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident
DAY 29:
11:37pm
Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where theyfirst decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want anydrinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road
Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all
Daniel: Wait for me....
20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran overdaniel and he is critical in the hospital
11:57pm
The doctor went out of the emergency room andhe handed out an apple juice and a letter
Doctor: We found this in daniel's pocket
Jasmine reads the letter and it says:
Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you are areally cute girl and i am really falling for you..Yourcherish smile your everything when we played thisgame..... Before this game would end...I wouldlike you to be my girl friend for the rest of mylife....I love you Jasmine....
Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:
"Daniel ! i don't want you to die... I loveyou...Remember that night when we saw ameteor, I mumbled something... I mumbled that Iwish we would be together forever and never endthis game. Please don't leave me Daniel.... I loveyou! You cannot do this to me!"
Then the clock strikes 12
Daniel's heart stop pumping
THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY
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Always love your loved ones and show them howyou feel before it is too late...You will never knowwhen they will be gone from your embrace...If youwere given a time to bestow petals of everlastingcompassion and love to your loved ones? Todayis the day....Love them while they are still here...

yours truly ;