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last official day in school!

my pw teacher, Mr Kevin Ang, actually read my blog! not mine only, there're still others like germ's! after i post this, i'm certain he will read this entry as well. Mr Ang, how can u invade our privacy~?! protest protest! hahas. nevermind. as a "revenge", his photo was taken during his pw lesson yesterday and will be posted, in not only my blog and most probably germ's too. HAHAHA. x: oops. Mr Ang, don't haunt me during my next op rehearsal horr. lols.

and here i presents................... Mr Kevin Ang! ( scratching his head. lols.)

we have had op yesterday and yepp, some of the class people's photos were taken too.

this is tian long..

and this is jessica!

and here is their group~ which contains ming may, lay jun, jessica, tian long and siong chye.

this group also presented on that day! containing from left, jia qi, lynnette, yan fen, kenetth and shawn! lols. i find this photo really funny narr! especially shawn!!!! lols.

and during CT period, we took some class photos!

the one which contains only the class!

and the one which contains both s11s and Mrs Tay!

we have had farewell assembly for Mr Kwek, with perfomances and talks.

we have.. the beach boys! with their funny moves!

and... Mr Kwek's farewell speech!

hahas. all the photos above except the maid's photos are taken with germ's camera, with numerous memories! (: thankiew germs! hahas.

this will be the last official day in school.. and some of us will be leaving school for other ventures.. which may include me too.. hais.. i'll miss s11 so much.. )):

yours truly ;

s11.. forever..

s11s, i love all of you kaes? ((: i always will. thankiew all. *huggs & muacksSsSs*

As we go on, we remember,
All the times we had together.
And as our lives change, from whatever,
We will still be, friends forever!

yours truly ;

promos results and 05s11!

so.. today.. we got back our promos results.. i got C for maths overall, E for maths promos then for chem i got O.. and to think that i also got an O for CA.. i guess my overall will be an O or F. for my econs.. i've got an O.. for CA, it'll either be a C or D.. so now.. for me is i confirm got either 1A 3AOs or 2As 2 AOs..

loads of people in our school have started to consider poly already.. and of course i'm one too. i'm thinking.. so what if i got promoted? my foundations are simply too weak. what i want is if i get very good results like 3Cs then i will want to get promoted, or else, what is the point? get promoted with my weak foundations and study harder stuff in J2, making myself suffer for another year and risk wasting another year? what is the point?

although i know many will tell me to give it a try and to work harder from now on, but.. that will be so-not-me. i'm not some kind of person, studying hard during the holiday i'm supposed to enjoy and then study hard throughout a year, i'm not this kind of person.. i dont know now.. i'll see how my overall results turn out ba..

no matter what will happen to anyone of us.. i believe 05s11 will always be 05s11! no one can EVER try to break the strong hydrogen bonds between us! s11s, thankiew for being part of my life, thankiew all for playing a vital part in my life. thankiew my batmaine ( my ever batman, germs! *huggs* ), hi-5 ( yan fen, joyce, shuk leng, lay jun and ming may), sleepy 4 ( jolynn, tammie, xiaoli and jessica ), powerpuff girls ( jas, yu zhen and jiaqi), fantastic 4 ( lynnette, sue ping, mei mei and vion) G8 ( jing yi, shi rong, shawn, samuel, siong chye, kenneth, henry and tian long ), incredible hulk ( kenny ) and wondermoman ( marilyn )!i love all of u! 05s11 rawkz on! (:

taken during pool during class chalet!

our fun class photo! came back to school to take on our second day of chalet! (:

our formal class photo!

our class identity, on everyone's lockers!

example : germ's and my lockers!

05s11, simply irresistable!

and last of all!

yours truly ;

frustrating times.

guess what? i finally have a spare phone! my dad picked up a samsung flip phone which looks like mine but without camera yesterday! i'm like suffering from lack of hp and finally i have one spare phone! weeee~ hmm.. kaes. i guess i've had enough of faking being happy.

loads of stuff have happened recently.. promos results will be coming out on monday, my mum has been constantly asking about my results EVERYDAY when i told her results will only be out on monday, germs is most possibly going overseas to further her studies, loads of CCAs in our school got closed down for some excuses no one believed in and i dont know what to do about my relationship.

i dont know what to do if i fail my promos, i dont know what to do if i pass my promos. if i fail promos, i will most probably go poly. but if i pass, is jc what i really want in the first place? should i really stay on in jc? is this what i really want?

although i didnt really show much emotions about germs going oversea. but actually frankly speaking, deep down.. i feel god damn sad. germs is the only new truthful friend i have made in jc, she is my precious batman, what is jc life without her? jc life already sucks, if she goes oversea, i cant imagine how i will survive the remaining time. germ's departure will not also affect me, but her CG too. marilyn even noticed my watery eyes at a moment, but of course i said it was nothing. yesh, this is my true emotions to germs' departure. i saw how depressed germs was this few days, it hurts me too, i saw her swollen eyes, i feel like crying too. but no matter how much i hope germs wont leave, i know what is important is that she'll be happy and that she'll make the right decision. *so girl, no matter what decision you make, remember i'll always support u kaes? *GIGANTIC huggs*

as for CCAs, although i'm relieved i dont have to undergo the sufferings of library anymore, i'm still frustrated. the school was telling us how important cca is to our testimonials even without the PEARLS last time, now they say cca is point-less. isnt this very contraditing? school was telling us universities will look at our cca, but now they're telling us cca is point-less, isnt this another contraditing point? >.<~ no offence to any teachers or anyone, but can all of u try to understand how we feel? bahh. whatever.

for relationship.. i really dont know what to do.. i really dont know.. ARGH!

yours truly ;

i'm so hp-deprived!!

see, i so good. blogged 4 days in a row le. (: i'm starting to blog more already. hahas.

anyways.. today's events and happenings..

first lesson of the day, econs tutorial, Mr Tay didnt come so we joined Mdm Loh's class for econs. she went through promos essay answers. out of the 3 essay questions i've done, i listened to the answers for questions 3 and 4 answers.. i went "OH MY GOD", i'm soooooo going to die for these 2 questions. she didnt go through the last question i did so i cant gauge how i do. but 2 questions going to die le, even if i got 25/25 for the last questions also useless de. >.<~ then she dismissed us a little earlier so me, germs, jing yi, henry and siong chye started playing dai dee. hahas. we played from about 8.45am all the way to 9.30am till our chem tutorial started..

second lesson of the day, chem tutorial, Mrs Tay went through some NMR thingy and i went "HUH" so many times. lols. my chem ah.. really diaos le, so yea, i wont pass chem promos too. >.<~

third lesson of the day, PW, oral presentation, lynnette's group presented first. not bad norr. quite good. (: then, siong chye's group presented, the most prepared group, well presented. (: last, sue ping's group, although they didnt prepare slides, but well it is supposed to be ORAL presentation, so it doesnt really matter, they did very well although there are no slides! (: my group only needs to present on fri but yea, we still havent really prepared much so tomorrow have to stay behind to do norr. >.<~

after school, since i dont feel like going home, and since i have already cancelled appointment to go watch show at korr's house ( not good to say want again ma ), so cos i have nothing better to do, i went to kai wen's house to teach him study again. tomorrow his o level practical de.. well.. hope he will do well ba. (: then my left eye suddenly very itchy so i keep rubbing it and my left eye became VERY red and left eye small, right eye big le. >..<~ now my eye still very red and unbalanced norr! argh!

then i went cwp samsung shop to claim my hp back but apparently, the person said: " cos your phone LCD display is not working, it will take longer than others to get repaired. so your phone should only be ready in about 1 week time. we'll give u a call when it's ready for collection". i went diaosss when i heard this. it's like come on norr, i'm soooooo hp deprived le still want me to wait for a few more days. i'm so sick of lending my dad's, germs' and ming may's phone to check my sms le narr. so ma fan!!! ARGH! i can only blame it on myself for not protecting it well. >.<~ I want my hp back~!!!!!!!

yours truly ;

"7 stuff" survey!

hmm.. since germs wanted me to do this from my interpretion of this -->

7 peeps I love to see doing this.

- oliver
- kenneth
- reina
- suezy
- juicy
- dasen
- ruohan =)

i will do those that "7 stuffs" survey. (:

7 things that scares me.
- fishes. ohh yesh, i hate fishes too, for me is including dead and fresh de. dont tell me eat fishes!but i love undead fishes. hahhas.
- ANY insects.
- screeching sounds, especially those of fingernails screeching on some surface. eeks!
- holes. e.g. bee hives and many straws stick together. i know i'm strange but that's me. lols.
- darkness. forced me into a dark room especially after horror flicks and i will scream my lungs out.
- tickles. yesh. cos i always got tickled and i can't stop giggling cos of it. >.<~
- loneliness. i can still tolerate any of the above, just not loneliness. so yea, i need my friends and loved ones around!

*germs, we're scared of loads of same things! woah! didnt know~ we really do have loads in common. (:*

7 things I love most.

- my family and 2 cousins ( qian and fang ). they're the most most most important people in my life.
- him. yesh, still him.
- my god family! kors, jies, meis, di and my nu-ers and er zi!
- my class, 05s11, u guys rawk my life! (:
- beach and sea. the place my heart always find peace.
- taking photos and neoprints! i LOVE to! hahas.
- shopping. deprive me of shopping? u might as well kill me. lols.

*and heyys, can i have another choice, lols. JAY! (:*

7 important things in my room.

- one thing to note, i dont own a room to myself. >.<~ but still ( if i own one).. my bed!
- my soft toys! *muacks muacks muacks*
- photos and neoprints pasted everywhere. (nicely narr. lols. )
- posters of jay! ( i own loads of them )
- all my cds, most importantly jay's!
- my wardrobe filled with clothes and soft toys!
- radio!

7 random facts about me.

- i chat a lot with people i get along well with but am quiet around people i dont know well.
- i'm super unconfident of myself.
- i'm pessimistic.
- i love adventures! (:
- i cant stand stress.
- i'm a super duper crybaby.
- i can't hide my emotions at all. >.<~ that is why people will know how i'm feeling that day through my show-all-emotions face.

7 things I plan to do before i die.
- hug my loved ones and friends and tell them how much i appreciate them.
- travel around the world.
- spend all my money on everything i want but bu she de spend on de.
- complain about the education system of singapore to MOE.
- buy presents for everyone i love.
- solve all misunderstandings.
- hold him tight and dont let go.

7 things I can do.
- listen to friends' problem and give advices.
- swim.
- eat loads of food at one time. hahas.
- pinch real hard! heh heh.
- understand how people feel.
- read storybooks for hours in a row.
- sleep real longgg.

7 things I cant do.
- yea. i cant stop thinking too much too. and i hate this! >.<~
- pluck up the courage to tell people my thoughts and feelings.
- live without my loved ones and friends.
- dont have a hp. i'm so hp deprived this few days after i sent it for repair narr! >.<~
- dont sleep for 2 days. 1 day and it's enough to make me fall sick the next day.
- stop studying.
- be back with him.

7 words I say most.

- go and die.
- shen jing bing.
- what the..
- shit.
- hello!
- wei!
- i want to go out!

7 peeps I love to see doing this.
*for this, i will say everyone! (:*

yepp! that's my "7 stuff" survey, understand me better le ma? hahas.

yours truly ;

i loveeeeeee scary movies!

you people ah.. tell me to blog but no one bothers to tag. )): like that i won't have the motivation to blog de norr. TAG LEH! lols. and yea. must read my previous entry too kaes! cos i wrote about my cheese sticks in the previous entry~! yummy yummy!!

okies. shall blog about today. have maths lecture first thing in the morning, felt weird cos we never have days starting with lecture in the previous timetable de. but yea, as usual, everyone was not listening to the lecture cos the whole LT was filled with noises. hahas.

then is PE and we did rock climbing~~~~~ i must say my skills have deproved till so jia lat le. like climb halfway or 3/4 then my hands went jelly-like and i can't reach the next holder. this shows how short my hands are. >.<~ maybe is cos i only did real rock climbing on real hills the last time i tried that is why i dont know how to climb the rock wall. but isn't the real hills supposed to be much more difficult than this fake rock wall? well.. so it still goes to show i really very lousy now le. >.<~ but i still prefer desailing ( is it supposed to be spelled this way? whatever. hahas. ). cos it is more challenging and hard. awww. i miss guides!! )):

kaes. then after that is econs tutorial and mr tay went through the rest of the promos mcq and i realised i couldnt remember some of my answers le so cant know my marks but i aga aga count then should be 15+- ba. >.<~ ahh.. whatever. then today morning assembly our principal announced that we'll only get our papers back next monday. that's like, keep got dread. we're anxious about our results leh. >.<~ iya. dont wanna talk about promos now.

then for chinese, zhang lao shi gave us so many homeworks narr. >.<~~~~~ hais. no choice, chinese ao coming.

then after school, some of the guys and lay jun wanted to watch The Wig, i wanted to join them but was attracted too to watch "Oujia Board" and "The Dollmaster" shown today cos of library week so i went with ming may, jas and yen to LT2 and watched them.

when we entered the LT, i was like >.<~ so little people, library's reputation ah.. really diaosss! lols. so we chose our places and it was showing "The Dollmaster". i watched till like 15+ min then realised it was showing it cos we thought we were watching "Oujia Board" first. lols. Dollmaster was okies, 6/10 for the rating but still, the whole LT got freaked out quite a lot of times. next come "Oujia Board" which was really scary. rating: 7 1/2 /10. there were more screams in the LT and i was grabbing jas's blouse throughout the show narr. lols. warning: watched scary movie with me have to get prepared to have your hands or shirt grab by me de. bleahs. till now, shutter is still on the top list of my favourite scary movies with rating 8 1/2 /10. hahas. i watched 3 times le still got freaked out norr. hahas. i just love watching scary moviess~ weeee!

then after the screenings, we went home! and that is how my day went by.. thrilling. ((:

yours truly ;

update. lols.

okies okies. since everyone told me to blog, i shall blog. hahas.

hmm.. went to kai wen's house yesterday, cos his o level is coming and he wanted me to teach him, when i reached his house, his friend was also there then i went "diaos. is this really asking me to teach you study?" then, i taught him a while but yea.. i guess he isn't really paying much attention to what i'm saying. then after a while he went to play game with his friend le leaving me rotting at one corner. so i pretended to be sleeping cos i didn't want him to feel bad for pang seh-ing me. then i heard his friend telling him not to pang seh me, then kai wen looked at me with an eye-sight of " i dont know what to do ". so i pretended not to hear anything and continue "sleeping". then when his friend has to leave le, i decided to leave as well cos i wont have anything to do anyway.

kai wen walked him to the road near mrt station while he walked me to the mrt station. i told him that i will go home myself from then but he said he wanted to go cwp too cos he wanted to buy some stuff. * i know that is just an excuse narr.. * so we took the train to cwp with some chattings along the way. then he asked me to accompany him go eat dinner although his mum got cook his share.. yea.. so we walked around cwp, no, he didn't eat dinner there. we went to some shops to see some stuffs then went to craft x as i wanted to buy friendship bands for germs and me. then as my phone is like getting from bad to worse till i cant even see the words anymore, he accompanied me to samsung shop to get it repaired. he helped me asked the person for help then even allowed me to use his IC for acknowledgement as i didnt bring mine. so my phone was sent to repair which means i cant have my own phone for the next few days. >.<~~ and kai wen will have to accomany me down again to retrieve it.. yea..

then i met my cousin cos she wanted to come cwp to deposit money and top up her hi card and cos she is supposed to ton at my house after that. so i met her and kai wen went off le. then after doing all those stuff my cousin wanted to do, we walked around for a while then headed home le. my mum told me to go my cousin's house ton instead so i went to her house. we watched "the transporter 2", my cousin was sleeping throughout while i fell asleep when the show was ending. hahas. then after the show, i woke up and woke up up too. we were very tired so we decided to sleep instead. lols. i used her phone to check out my phone and there were smses from kai wen and cat korr. cat korr's sms was usual chatting sms while kai wen's one was yea.. asking me to patch.. this wasnt the first time he asked me le.. we smsed a while telling each other how we feel and stuff then he went off to sleep cos he got tuition today morning.. then i went off to sleep too..

i woke up at 10am today morning then continuing smsing korr and kai wen. kai wen and me come to an agreement to let fate decides. but we wont patch now.. cos.. i dont want to go for relationship which wont last anymore.. yea..

anyway, lets come back to today. i baked cheese sticks with my cousins at my cousin's house today!! and they are delicious!!! okies. i may sound like i'm boasting but i'm not. hahas. they are really delicious~~ cheesyy~ just the right taste! hahas. although not as nice as the cheese sticks of beard papa narr. but they are still nice norr! lols. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

yours truly ;

woah~~~~

yep yep! i'm at germ's house now! reached at around 12+ yesterday after renting 3 vcds ( phantom of the opera, ice princess and honey ), buying mochi, kinder bureno and sushi for lunch! the moment we reached her house, we watched finish the 3 vcds in a row and ate finish all the fattening food. lols. then jing yi messaged germs to ask whether to go play pool or not. as me and germs had always wanted to go clubbing, although we had already asked my gan kor to go along with us, but we felt that the more the merrier, so we asked jing yi to go with us and he told us to ask the others first, if there are other class guys going then he will go along, so we asked kenneth, who said he will get his parents' permission first.

although kenneth's parents allow, apparently, he said he dont feel like going, so germs and me are wondering.. if he didnt want to go in the first place, why he asked his parents? lols. then so cos no other guys wanted to go, jing yi didnt go eventually and he didnt even want to go play pool anymore cos he wanted to watch x files last episode. >.<~ germs and me then went to town and walked around, eating more snacks, there are cheesestick, tako pachi and new zealand fruit flo! can u imagine how much fattening stuff we ate yesterday?! omg. lols. then we walked around more and met my korr at centrepoint mac around 10.30pm. my headache then started to come up, i always do get sick if i didnt get enough sleep (didnt really have enough sleep for the past few weeks, partly cos of exams but mostly cos i couldn't really sleep well after the broke up. ): ). then korr ate his dinner at mac, and he made LOADS OF CALLS to his friends asking them to go along but apparently no one wanted to go. so he accumulated his hp bills for nothing. hahas.

then we walked around searching for a cab and finally boarded one at a taxi stand. we went to RUSH club, stood outside for so long ( dont know what for ) then entered. the person stamped a *rejected* chop on our wrist and allowed us in. germs interpret that as we are not allowed to drink any alcohol as the other people who are above 18 has a different stamp. so we went inside and the atmosphere was so cool inside narr. everyone dancing, chatting, drinking and SMOKING. we are overpowered by the smoke the moment we entered. then my korr saw his friend's friends there so we joined them. germs and me then started feeling very weird as we didnt have anything to do. we started rotting there but we still love the atm0sphere! we finally danced and it was soooooooo cool!! hahas. we slacked around, moving our heads momentarily with the music. then suddenly, the music stopped and a line of policemen came in, they caught some people out and it took them more than half an hour. >.<~ if all of u have realised, everywhere germs go, there will be police presence. germs! the police are attracted to u! after that, the police went off and the music started and everyone started getting havoc again. then after that one of my kor's friend's friend finally talked to us ( apparently, all of them are shy people ), then this guy is called jackson and after germs asked him he got friendster or not, he took her phone and INSERTED HIS NUMBER inside her phone. lols. this is his indirect way of getting her contact. lols!

then after that, germ's sis come and fetch us back to her house. we stood outside RUSH to discuss where her sis would be fetching us then jackson came out with a hp and told me his friend, melvin wanted my number. i gave, i dont know why i did. >.<~ then my korr walked us to re square to meet germ's sis. when we got on the cab, jackson told germs his friend lost my number and wanted it again and germs actually gave it to him! >.<~ she only told me after she gave it to him narr. >.<~ but after we reached germ's house, melvin smsed germs first~ SO I THINK MELVIN WANTED MY NUMBER AS AN EXCUSE TO CONTACT GERMS. lols. melvin only smsed me after he smsed germs norr. see~ germs so got mei li! lols. germs and me thought of asking s11 to go together after chinese ao level so that we can really get havoc~ then after that, germs and me did bed chatting and pillow fighting then we slept till morning. apparently, germs is still sleeping now and i'm like the only one awake. >.<~~

i love yesterday~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ will update pics when i reached home~

yours truly ;

i need him..

i tried to revise for maths just now, and i realised i forgot about loads of concepts already. no matter how hard i tried to understand them, they still seemed like stranger concepts to me. deep in my heart, i know it's hard to pass promos, i know.. dont have to console me telling me i can make it, i know i cant.. i cant.

then i started getting very depressed and not in the mood to study at all anymore. i begin my usual thinking of stuffs and i suddenly realise, i need him, i really do.. he's the only person who can cheer me up again.. the only person who can truely bring a smile on my face.. the only person who just need to give me a reassuring hug and everything will seem alright already.. since i broke up with him, it has been real long since i last smile. i really do wonder a lot whether it's really right of me to initiate a break up.. is it what my heart really wants or is my mind controlling me to do so? can someone provide me with an answer? )):

And I really feel sorry for myself.. Coz I was controlled by my mind..

yours truly ;

i'm hating my life more and more..

parents oversea, brother gone out, alone at home with granny, just quarrelled with kai wen, struggling with promos, that is how LONELY and PATHETIC i'm feeling now. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i can't wait for promos to end, no matter whether i pass or fail, i just want promos to end! i want to go havoc after promos!!!

Now my heart is aching, and there's only one to blame: This poor heart of mine, who didnt even bothered to fight.

yours truly ;