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.Saturday, March 29, 2008 ' 10:52 PM Y

boring off day. ): *edited*

today off day..
but i was slacking at home all the way,
cos no one ask me out. ):

slacked all the way till evening,
then my mummie said she going out to woodlands center to help my brother photocopy some stuff and to do some grocery shopping.
cos i couldn't stand the loneliness at home,
i followed her.

went to sheng siong, bought alot of groceries,
then my mummie accompanied me to search for my jeans short. :D
decided on the green colour de and my mummie bought for me! (:
my mummie is the best please!
reached home around 9pm.

got to find out some disgusting thing from someone yesterday,
about another friend of ours.
wah lao!
to think that all of us thought that friend is improving,
but that person is actually only pretending.
insulting everyone of us behind our backs!
all of us have knives on our back la!
wah lao!
won't ever think that that person is improving anymore!

thinking of starting some new stuff,
to keep myself occupied occupied and occupied!
so that i won't feel empty and lonely le. :D

i miss my cliques in school!
sooooooooo long since i last see them. ):
can't wait to go out with them again!
maybe a stayover again?
miss you girls so so much!!! ): ): ):

i put some words inside our past photos! :D

chalet! shuhui missing!

shuhui is important too! and i miss her so much la! so must put photo containing her also. never see her for the longest! ):

i don't need anything now,
all i need is the strength to move on..
please.
i've had enough..

i'm starting to hate you.

yours truly ;

.Friday, March 28, 2008 ' 10:12 PM Y

BOUGHT! (:

HELLO! :D

today is my fifteenth day at Capitol Optical!
today Pei Sung off, Kelly on leave and Don went HQ for meeting.
so only Sabiah, Candy, Mr Edward and me in shop from morning to evening.
was slacking and staring into air all the time.
Don came back in the evening.
never do any refraction today, only sold contact lenses.

today qian, ting and their mum who is my auntie came to visit me today.
qian shouted my name out from faraway please.
so pai seh, all the passer-bys were like wondering who is ruo han la.
chatted a while then they went off le.

went to Metro with Sabiah after work for some girls' shopping. ;x
finally bought what i wanted to buy all along la!! the colours so cute also! ;x HAPPY! :D :D :D
but cos i didn't bring enough money, Sabiah helped me pay first. (:

someone only knows how to say but no action,
said today want come visit me, in the end stay at home gaming all the way, or maybe chat with his darling the whole day la.
iya, he only knows how to go visit his darling during her work de, when he never even tell her he will go visit her, 2 days in a row somemore.
he said want come find me, in the end got or not?
where are all the good guys in the world? going extinction i think.
my friends, help me look out for gentleman for my future bf eh? hahaha.

tomorrow off!!! :D
someone date me go watch Step Up 2 or The Orphanage leh. ):
sian. tomorrow is my last off day, after that no more off day till end of attachment which is on 5th april. ): ): ):

no one tag my blog today. sadded. ):

yours truly ;

.Thursday, March 27, 2008 ' 6:33 PM Y

KEN LEE~~

i was shown this video by a friend of mine.



superbly funny!
KEN LEEEEE~ LOL.
enjoy! ;D

yours truly ;

. ' 9:16 AM Y

mistakes mistakes mistakes. ):

:D & ):

yesterday was my fourteenth day at Capitol Optical.
was slacking throughout the day till around evening then customers started coming in.
when i came out of the room after i did refraction on my first customer, i was surprised la!
shu hui was standing at the cashier area! she came to visit me! :D
i already forgot she told me she coming to visit me le. ;x

we sat down and chatted for around 45mins, about SPOC and patients' conditions and stuff.
then she talked about people in our course and our own clique.
so long since i last seen her!
from the last time she came to eat lunch with us during my attachment at SPOC till now la!
so we had loads of things to chat about. haha.

yesterday very sad. ):
cos shu hui came to visit me when i was attending to this customer,
so she sat down wait for me to finish first.
then i actually see wrongly the lenses to prescribe to the customer la!
cos the customer quite high power, so she wanted to take high index lenses, i didn't see that her astigmatism was not within the stock range, must RX range, then i gave her the price for the stock range. ):
when the customer went off, Candy saw it then told me, then Pei Sung and Kelly were quite unhappy with me la. ):
then i kept try to call the customer but she never picked up.

but the problem was settled later cos the customer called back then Don helped me tell her. Don is like the nicest in the shop except for Candy and Sabiah la.
he kept saying nevermind nevermind, still can explain to the customer when Pei Sung was nagging at me.
my assessment this week by Pei Sung sure buang le. ):

cos somemore a few hours later, this couple came in, both wanted to make spectacles and buy contact lenses.
then the guy wanted to follow his old spectacles power so i forgot to measure his PD cos used to getting people's PD from auto-refractometers le mah.
then i realised only after they went off already.
then Pei Sung looked at me again. >.<
i'm so dead...

today off.
thinking of asking my cousin go out watch The Orphanage and pei me go do some stuff..
but i think she already started working le..
hais..
maybe i will go out alone bah..
i also want to watch Step Up 2 badly! ):

yours truly ;

.Wednesday, March 26, 2008 ' 8:43 AM Y

lovelove to all visitors! :D

:D & ):

yesterday was my thirteenth day at Capitol Optical.
as usual did refractions and stuff.
it has been getting really boring over there, with the long hours, 11am to 9.20/9.25pm. SO LONG LA.
but yesterday i was watching Don play final fantasy on his psp for hours. haha.
cos the english version came out already then he played then just nice he was sitting beside me and i got nothing better to do so i watched him play.
Don is like in his 30s le la, omg, can't stand guys, most guys are like addicted to games please,
but i still do know some who don't play games at all de, these guys are like perfect please. :D

phyllis came to visit me! (:
i was standing at the cashier there helping Don they all with some excel stuff cos they don't really know how to operate it when i received phyllis's sms asking whether i was working.
i replied yea and she said she walked past my shop but didn't see me, i figured i must be standing at the cashier there so i asked her to come again. ;x
she came in the shop and found me. :D
we sat down and chatted for quite a long time. (:

after that amanda came then phyllis went to find her then amanda waved to me. :D
then after that the 2 of them went off shopping le.

i was in kind of a bad mood at the back half of the day there cos of someone.
he spoilt my mood totally.
it is enough already.

thanks for all that have visited!
you're being loved! :D
really appreciate all your visits la!

tomorrow off day!
:D :D :D

yours truly ;

.Tuesday, March 25, 2008 ' 8:31 AM Y

wai chien's visit! :D

:D & ):

yesterday was my twelfth day at Capitol Optical.
customers were once again rare from morning to afternoon.
but wai chien daughter came to visit me! :D
the last time i saw her was like 2 years+ ago? cos she has been staying at malaysia since we were sec 2, then she visited singapore once when i quitted JC and was working at motorola.
then yesterday she visited singapore again, then she came to visit me! (:

i was rotting in the shop,
i almost fell asleep sitting on the chair la,
then i saw someone standing outside my shop for a while,
so i opened my eyes wider to see that it is her!
we chatted for a long time,
about how long it has been, about school, about our classmates, about everything.
felt so contented to chat with her again la. :D
miss her so much la!

yesterday customers were mostly parents bringing their children to make spects cos their degree increased already.
so i did refractions on 2 children and 1 teenager.

yesterday was his fifth day in china,
i had a nightmare containing him again.
i can't remember what i dreamt about,
all i know is it contained him,
and i woke up with tears rolling out from my eyes again.
i'm getting tired of this.
it seems like i'm the only one who is so affected..

yours truly ;

.Sunday, March 23, 2008 ' 10:19 PM Y

busy busy day!

:D

eleventh day at Capitol Optical!
today busy from morning to night sia! cos today sunday then all families go out shopping.
from shop opened already got customers flooding in already.
then i did 3 refractions today, helped customers chose frames, dispensed spectacles and sold contact lenses. :D

for the past 3 days, CWP got this "give a hand" roadshow.
is ask people buy cards to donate money to the needy de lor.
then 1st day kym ng and bryan wong came,
2nd day michelle chong and dasmond koh came
then today, the 3rd and last day, pornsak and belinda came.
today i took some photos of belinda, pornsak and the host.

belinda and pornsak were playing something like uno stacko.

then chin rui kor and pei fen came to visit me at around reaching 8pm. :D
they accompanied me chat and shun bian tried on some frames and shades till about 9+pm. (:
then they went to buy some tidbits for pei fen while waiting for me to finish work.
today i knocked off at 9.15pm. :D :D :D
then i went to sweettalk there find them.

we then went to pasar malam walk walk for quite a while.
then at around 10pm we went home le.
thanks for coming to visit me wor! (:
safe trip to india for your training tomorrow kor! :D
sorry cannot send you off wor, cos tomorrow i got work.

4th day he is in china..
i don't know what i'm thinking anymore..
i looked at our past photos..
and i suddenly feel so weird..
feel that those photos are not real..
feel that the past 1 year+ was just imagination..
feel that we are so far apart..
just like...
strangers..

Life without you is indeed suffocating..
For the air around you, is what i breathe..

yours truly ;

. ' 9:56 AM Y

):

yesterday was my tenth day at Capitol Optical.
was a very very boring day again, but Pei Sung chatted alot with me,
found out she graduated at about 2005 i think.
found out a lot of scary things about clinic from her,
like Mr Chris Ng will ask alot of difficult questions, she even failed one session cos she don't know how to answer his questions la!
then Ms Monica Lim is also a Binocular Vision expert, so in clinic, all patients suspected of having BV problems will be arranged under her slot and whoever is under her for that clinic session needs to really be familiar with BV stuff. OMG.

luckily got Pei Sung accompanied me chat, or else i think i will rot to death yesterday.

yesterday was his 3rd day and today is his 4th day at china..
i have been having nightmare containing him everyday..
and i would always wake up crying from them.
haven't been sleeping well since he went china. hais..
i guess i haven't started moving on yet..
someone please help me..

you are quick to leave & i am slow to let go..

yours truly ;

.Friday, March 21, 2008 ' 9:26 PM Y

out to town! :D

:D

today off! (:

went town meet fang for shopping and movies! cos she went to chinatown with her parents first.
was supposed to meet her 3.30pm at somerset mrt station but i was 10 minutes late. ;x
went cine bought Rule #1 tickets first.
took some ugly photos inside the toilet. too ugly to be posted. ;x

then walked to far east for shopping.
i bought 1 pair of slippers, 2 similar bangles ( cos they come in a set, so i think i going to give one to fang ), 2 thin patent belts and 1 formal top!
ok, i've officially spent finished my ang baos money from all the movies i have watched and shopping i've done recently.
BROKE!! ):

after that, we walked back to cine for dinner.
wanted to eat Pastamania but the movie timing already nearing le and Pastamania was too full for us to have seats. ):
so we went to foodcourt for dinner.

after dinner, went to watch Rule #1.
was ok la, actually not very scary but true, every 5 mins will get scared one time and in the beginning already started scaring people le.
scary enough to make my cousin and me grabbed each other la. ;x
also got a few parts quite funny then everyone in the cinema laughed.
rating: 3/5.

we wanted to watch The Orphanage de!
but the 6+pm tickets already sold out la! ):
and she don't want to watch the 8.10pm de cos she wants to go home in time to watch her 10pm show.
so we went to watch Rule #1 lor.
but i don't mind la, cos it's in one of my want-to-watch list. :D

2nd day he went to china..
i've been wondering about alot of things..
but i still can't decide what to do..
do you miss me as much as i miss you..? do you even miss me..?
should i just prepare my heart to be ready to let go..?

i'm trying to convince myself that you're not the one for me. but the more i think, the less i believe it, & the more i want you here with me..

yours truly ;

.Thursday, March 20, 2008 ' 9:51 PM Y

i miss you..

):

ninth day at Capitol Optical.
hais.
have been feeling down the whole day..
don't know why this few days CWP so empty then like few hours came in one customer.
so i have nothing better to do in the shop but stare into air,
and when i'm not occupied with work, my mind wonders..
then cos he went china today le.. so the whole of today i kept thinking about him..

i miss him, i really do, alot..
but there are just so many things i don't understand..
i hope that i can just reach into his mind and heart to answer all my questions..

he is going china for 6 days..
6 days with no contact at all..
how am i going to get used to it..

forget the times he walked by, forget the times he made you cry,
forget the times he spoke your name, remember now you're not the same.
forget the times he held your hand, forget the sweet things if you can,
forget the times & don't pretend, remember now he's just your friend.

yours truly ;

. ' 9:18 AM Y

):

first day you went to china..
i miss you..

yours truly ;

.Wednesday, March 19, 2008 ' 10:06 PM Y

Ms Ng's visit!

:D & ):

eighth day at Capitol Optical.
today Ms Dorothy Ng ( my liason officer aka attachment teacher ) told me to skip breakfast cos she will be visiting me at around 11+ 12+ for a meal.
Ms Ng came at around 12, then we went to BK to eat,
she treated me! :D
both of us ate mushroom swiss burger meal,
was so filling that we didnt manage to finish the fries and onion rings.

i was so full that i only ate that and chocolate biscuits from my shop's pantry the whole day. haha.

Ms Ng and i talked about alot of things, attachment at Cap Op, attachment in SPOC and alot of other stuff.
and guess what?
we were from the same secondary school!
ahmad ibrahim secondary! lol.
then we talked about the teachers there and stuff.
Ms Ng then signed my log book and went off to find Michelle next.

today,
Mr Edward not around, so very slacked please. ;x
no one visited me today. ):

took pictures again. HAHAHA.

this is my new shirt from Dano! :D

i want to watch Step up 2, Rule #1 and The orphanage badly! ):
he is going china at 6am later. hais..

yours truly ;

. ' 8:47 AM Y

sky of love!

:D & ):

yesterday was my seventh day at Capitol Optical.
it was a boring morning to afternoon again, like one customer came in every few hours?
but i did contact lens fitting on a lady ang-mo, cos Pei Sung off! did auto-refractometer, then refraction, then fit contact lens, then did slit lamp to see lens movement and everything then taught her insertion & removal, care & maintainence and everything! :D

maddie and elyssa made a surprised visit! (: (: (:
i was like feeling so bored the first few hours after shop opened, then while i was staring at the shop entrance,
2 familiar person suddenly appeared at the entrance!
they smiled and i was so surprised la!
then i chatted with them for very long.
maddie forgot to bring my clothes ah. lol.
after that they went to walk around and they visited me again before they left. :D

then at night,
fang came to visit me! :D
she then waited till my shop closed then we went to watch Sky of love!

I LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!
rating: 5/5 please!
although it was a old-fashioned story, as in you can predict everything, but it is still very touching la!!
the true love the 2 male characters have for the main female character, omg! so strong and touching!
and the true love between the main male and main female characters are so touching too!
i cried towards the end of the show la!
and i could hear sniffing throughout the cinema too.
i strongly recommend everyone who loves touching love story to watch it! :D

next time the vcd or dvd come out, i think i will buy ah!
anyways, the trailer! (:


anyways, took pictures when i was way too bored in the shop again. haha.
shall post some presentable ones again.

i rather we don't contact anymore than you always being so rude to me..

yours truly ;

.Monday, March 17, 2008 ' 11:46 PM Y

bad day! ):

):

sixth day at Capitol Optical, and a bad day..
beginning to don't enjoy working there anymore..
cos of that Kelly.
i like everyone there ah, especially Sabiah cos she very friendly.

i already don't really like Kelly in the first place.
cos when i first joined them, everyone greeted me nicely, except for her la.
the first face she showed me was this hostile face, so didnt really like her since.

then today, i sold freshlook colorblends monthly to this girl,
i offered a starter kit to her.
then when that girl went off,
Kelly immediately nagged at me,
"she didnt ask for the starter kit you shouldnt have given her, she seemed keen to buy the solutions, now cos u offered, we lost a deal".
>.<
immediately bad mood after she said me..

then when i wrote the receipt form, supposed to write the receipt number on it,
when i wrote, that Kelly nagged again,
"eh eh, don't write on it".
cos i remembered is must write de, so i asked Sabiah, and she confirmed say must write,
WAH, MY MOOD BECAME WORSE. ):

couldn't stand it,
so went to da bao my dinner,
cos scared i will show black face if i stayed on..
when i was walking around the foodcourt thinking of what to buy,
have the sudden urge to cry,
and the first thing i thought of was to sms or call him to confide in him..
but in the end i didn't..
cos i know it is not right, and i should move on le..

hais..
misses..
now, i've to come to a point i must tou tou come online before i sleep to feel his presence, seeing him online in my msn list then i can sleep better, or else i will find it hard to sleep, pathetic isn't it.
hais, i better stop this..

counting down to the 5th of april..
the last day of attachment..
rid of Kelly from my sight..
can't wait..
so what if she has worked 7 years for Cap opt?
can anyhow bully people meh? ):
Sabiah told me she don't like Kelly too,
cos she also always get nagged by her.
Sabiah also told me alot of people who worked or attached here before hates her.
i think next time whoever comes to visit me, see her hostile face, sure turn off.

tomorrow maybe fang ( my next door cousin ) coming to visit me then we watching Sky of love after my work. ;D
can't wait to watch Sky of love,
the trailer looks nice,
and alot of people said it's touching.

misses.. ):

yours truly ;

. ' 12:21 AM Y

thanks er zi!

;D & ):

fifth day at Capitol Optical!
was happy & sad.
happy cos i served a customer fully!
from choosing of frames to doing refraction to closing the deal! ;D
finally did a full refraction there myself! ( although i did loads of that in SPOC la )

sad cos let Mr Edward grade me on this week,
and he gave me a B for both conduct and performance. ):
i think all my friends got A ah..
):

qing yu er zi came to visit me! (:
the last time i saw him..
i think around 2 years ago?
he changed so much please!
now he knows how to dress up nicely, he rebonded his hair too i think!
my er zi now become so shuai le! lol. proud to be his mummie la! ;x
i think my er zi this year going 18? haha.

chatted with him for quite a while!
thanks for visiting me er zi! ;D
cos i was emo-ing no one visits me then u suddenly come visit me!
was feeling happy! (:

yours truly ;

.Saturday, March 15, 2008 ' 11:18 PM Y

outing with kor and pei fen! ;D

;D

my tagboard is finally back la! it mia-ed for one day please! flashbox sucks. >.<

anyways, today off!
then was at home the whole day till evening.
then chin rui kor called me reaching 6, asking me whether i want to join him and my ex-da sao ( hope she will reconsider to be my da sao again! ) for movie.
since i got nothing better to do, i agreed. (:
prepared and ate dinner, then set out le.

they so funny la, they suddenly couldn't decide whether to watch the movie or not when i already set out le. lol.
then i reached at around 7.05pm.
they decided not to watch le. lol.

i then visited the staff in my shop! ;D
then we went to this "tree aus park" near cwp to sit down and chat lor.
then at there, they suddenly discuss whether want to watch movie again or not. lol.
then it suddenly started raining.
so we ran all the way back to cwp.
was drenched! ):

then we decided to watch "The Spiderwick Chronicles", the 9.10pm de!
bought the tickets then we went to the value dollar shop to buy tidbits!

rating: 3.5/5! quite nice! not bad!
i especially love this part please!
Mallory Grace: [to Thimbletack] What happens when Mulgarath gets the book?
Thimbletack: I die. You die. We all die. Bye-bye.
lol! the way thimbletack said it, super funny please!
everyone in the cinema laughed la!

we then set off to our individual's home after that. (:
have had a nice day out with kor and my ex- and please be future- da sao! ;D
i see the 2 of them together, like super suitable for each other lor, the way they behave, so sweet also! like real couple! please be back together! haha! ( this sentence is for pei fen!! i know u read my blog. ;x )

yours truly ;

.Friday, March 14, 2008 ' 9:54 PM Y

love capitol opt cwp staff!

;D

fourth day at Capitol Optical!
today although not alot of customers but better than the past 2 days la.
i love today!
today kept chatting with Sabiah, Kelly and Angie.
then they gave me the 2 boxes already-stop-manufacture 1 day acuvue colours la!
cos next month jiu expire le, so they gave for free lor.
chestnut brown colour! nice ah! ;D
wore one pair at the shop and liking it!
i love all the people at Capitol Opt la!

they then gave me this freshkon alluring eyes lens case holder! look so cute please! I LOVE IT!! am so going to store all my lens cases inside it!
then i took a lot of blink eyedrops. ;x
took so many things from shop home! (: (: (:

qian visited me in the afternoon before she went to find her bf! ;D
my brother walked past my shop when i went to the foodcourt to da bao my dinner,
so he didn't see me and he gave me a call to find out i was not around.
sad! today only qian visited! ):
ate my dinner at the pantry in the shop,
drank the japanese green tea in the pantry after that! ;D

bought 1 purple top and 1 skirt from Dano!
decided not to buy the white top cos i don't really fancy it alot and needs to save money!

then don't know why i got a little blurred vision with the coloured lens,
think cos of the lighting in the shop ah.
then i thought i saw his sister walked past my shop, cos she has the exact same hair length, hair colour, shorts, bag and walking style as his sister please.
so i thought is her then i smsed him told him about it, only to find out his sister is in taiwan,
the coloured lens blurred my vision until like that sia.

and omg,
all the people who came to Capitol Opt are rich people please.
everyday also got people buy Oakley sunglasses and glasses.
today got someone bought Oakley sunglasses and Ray Ban sunglasses at one time la! SO RICH!!!
the Oakley sunglasses look so nice! i also want own one! ):

anyways,
i took alot of photos yesterday and today!
shall post some presentable ones. ;x

took this with the mirror on the table ;x

the following 2 with the mirror on the wall!

ok! next 2 will be me in red and brown frames glasses!
the red!

the brown!

ok, i know i look ugly. keep your comments to yourself please. ;x

tomorrow off!!~~! ;D
date me out people!

yours truly ;

.Thursday, March 13, 2008 ' 11:21 PM Y

feel loved! ;D

;D

third day at Capitol Optical!
there were like so little customers from morning all the way to 3+pm la! cos raining mah.
i didn't go for lunch break cos inside shop also slack outside shop also slack. ;x so just slacked inside shop lor.
then customers increased from 3+pm onwards. ;D
today i helped some customers did auto-refractometers and chose frames. (:

phyllis and her bf, benny came to visit me today~ ;D ;D ;D
was so funny la.
phyllis said i was looking at her direction when she walked towards the shop,
so she thought i saw her already,
but i turned my head away then she realised i didn't see her,
i only saw her when she entered the shop ah. haha.
then phyllis talked to me for quite a while while benny looked around at glasses.
we then agreed to meet after my work if she is still around.

kai wen came and accompanied me for dinner today again. (:
ate mac.
die sia. i think i too long never eat fastfood le, ate le after that for a few hours felt like vomitting,
now still got a little nausea sia.
he then went off after dinner.
thanks for accompanying me for dinner 2 days straight! really appreciated! ;D
or else i will feel so lonely then will da bao back to shop eat le.

qian then came at around 9pm!
she went around shopping first cos i 9.30pm then off work.
at 9.25pm like that she came to look for me then told me she going The Face Shop.
then 9.30pm closed shop le i went B1, wanting to look for her, saw phyllis and benny when i took the escalator down, they were sitting down chatting.
qian then approached me.
phyllis told me to go off with qian first cos she has to accompany benny till 10+.

qian pulled me to Dano. haha.
by right, Dano already closed le, but we got priority to go in after it has closed cos qian worked there before then all the people there her friends.
she kept throwing me formal clothes to try la!
in the end decided on 2 tops and 1 skirt. (:
asked them to reserve for me, buying tomorrow i think. ;D
but don't know want to buy 1 of the top or not, i'm so broke!!

after that, this lazy girl wanted to take cab back home again.
so she longbang me to her block, her block only like 1 road away from my block. lol.
reached home around 10.30pm. (:

anyways! i changed my off days to 15th, 21st, 27th and 29th of march, so date me out if you want!
phyllis said maybe 15th we can go out~ ;D ;D ;D

tomorrow no one accompanying me eat dinner. ):
so if some kind soul reads my blog and want to pei me, come la hor. ;x

i feel contented today~
glad to know that there are still people who cares for me.
i feel loved! ;D

for everyone who reads my blog,
please do tag if you read my blog! don't read le then run away!

zz. i just saw someone's display pic in msn and i sian diao already.
well, someone's phrase is true, it especially applies to that someone who said it too,
"a leopard will never change its spots".
i don't know why i must always mind so much, even though it's none of my business anymore.
maybe i should just keep myself away from that group the person is in in my msn and someone's blog,
or else i everyday will also be affected.
a little spoilage to my good mood. >.<

yours truly ;

. ' 8:34 AM Y

second day at Capitol Op.

second day at Capitol Optical. ;D
yesterday was quite boring, cos yesterday like not much customers ah.
so were mostly sitting behind dispensing counters chatting with Sabiah ( one of the opticians ) and Pei Sung ( the optometrist ).
Li Hui came to visit me in the morning. (: ok, she didn't actually plan to visit me la. ;x she didn't know i'm attaching there, it's just that she wanted to tighten her frame screws then just nice she came into the shop and saw me.
then we did a little bit of catching up on each other's lives. (:

had lunch with Yun Chong. ;D
he attaching at Better Vision ( second floor ), i attaching at Capitol Optical ( first floor ), his shop just above mine ah.
so he came down, walked by my shop then asked whether i eat lunch le or not.
since i haven't go for lunch break, i joined him lor.
as usual, didn't eat my lunch, just wanted to come out and slack. ;x

went back to the shop, received fenni's sms asking whether i got work today or not cos her dad, her brother and her came to CWP then raining they need umbrella.
i don't bring umbrella out de ah so can't borrow them.
fenni told me she walked by my shop just now, was looking for me but didn't see me.
figured out that i must be at the foodcourt when she did so. ):
so i asked her to come back after her brother pre-poly medical check up at civic centre.
but his check up took so long,
then in the end her dad needed to rush off she can't come visit me le. ):

then this girl came in, wanting to buy contact lens.
Pei Sung did auto-refractometer on her then cos her left eye so red, Pei Sung did Slit Lamp on her.
Pei Sung then told me to look at that girl's eyes too.
wah! my first time seeing infiltrates!
one whole row of white big dots lining her left eye nasal limbus!
then her left eye lower lids got SO MUCH papillaes, her right eye lower lids got some too.
Pei Sung then advised her not to wear contact lens for at least 2 weeks.

kai wen then came down at 7pm.
he accompanied me for dinner at Yoshinoya, was having gastric pain then le. ):
then after that he went some place to play his psp while waiting for 9.30pm.
9.20pm like that, saw him waiting outside my shop.
then 9.25pm, my manager closed the shop le. ;D
then we went to buy bubble tea then went cinema. (:
watched 10,000BC.

nice nice! 4/5. (:
some parts quite exciting ah, got some funny parts also. lol.
especially this part!

what happened here was, D'Leh ( the main character, this guy above ), fell into this pit when he was hunting for food then he fell unconscious. when he woke up, he saw this saber-tooth stuck under a tree in the pit too.
he was scared and wanted to kill the saber-tooth but he decided to set it free instead.
so he said, "Do not eat me when i save your life!"
lol! like the saber-tooth understands what he is talking about like that. ;x
then he set the saber-tooth free, it approached him like in the picture above.
he so scared la. lol. but in the end the saber-tooth really like showed gratitude and didn't eat him.
the saber-tooth even helped him later in the movie ah.
nice nice!
D'Leh (Steven Strait) so shuai! Evolet (Camilla Belle) quite chio also!
and the saber-tooth look SO COOL please!

no one else can accompany me watch movie. ):
the only person i can ask is kai wen. ):

kai wen then sent me home.
i couldn't sleep when i reached home. ):
still didn't feel good about something, misses. ):
so smsed maddie asked her she slept le or not.
she haven't sleep so i called her then maddie, elyssa and me conference till around 2am then i went to sleep.
took quite a while to fall asleep after that even. ):

bahhs..
don't want to think about it now..
hope later got more customers to keep me occupied..
i think i want to change my off days ah, too much sundays le, want to change to mostly weekdays bah, cos sundays if never go out stay at home nothing to do, weekdays if stay at home at least can use com..
will update my off days again when i change.

yours truly ;

.Tuesday, March 11, 2008 ' 10:52 PM Y

ATTACHMENT! ;D

i've decided to move on.
i've decided not to wait anymore, for someone who is not worth it at all.
so i'm ready to blog again. ;D

when i was reading her blog for the past few days, seeing her mentioning about working,
although she didn't mention what she is working as and stuff, i don't know why, i just have a feeling she is working at the Suntec IT fair.
yesterday when i met up with sheena and szy for training at HQ, sheena came first,
and she told me she saw him at the IT fair on sunday.
cos i knew he went the IT fair on saturday, so i was wondering why he went on sunday again,
and i concluded she must be working there and he must have met her there.
so i asked him, and guess what?
my sixth sense is the best, cos i'm correct.

i was affected, but i'm ok now, they want loving, let them loving, they want be together, let them be together, she is just going to continue flirting although she is with him, and they won't last long for sure, cos his personalities sucks, and she is a flirt.
i don't care if he or she reads my blog, just know that you 2 sucks. ;D

and you people know what?
mad promised to go down tampines help me take my clothes back from him today although she don't need to go down.
i told him to make himself TOTALLY free today.
in the end, mad reached there, messaged him, he said he has to go for injection for some stupid flu vaccine cos he is going china soon, so can't meet anymore.
so mad went down on a wasted trip.
he is just an irresponsible piece of shit.

anyways, enough of that jerk. (:

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today is my first day at Capitol Optical Causeway Point. (:
not as bad as i thought it will be, cos the manager, the optometrist and the opticians are nice. ;D
at first i thought the manager is quite scary when i went for the meet-up session before the attachment,
but he turned out quite nice and friendly.

there were quite alot of customers ah.
i watched them serve the customers, watched them helped customers select frames, watched them did refraction, watched them write the forms, and i think i quite familarized with everything le.
i did auto-refractometers on some customers and did part of a refraction on a customer, good ah, cos most shops don't allow us attachment people to do refraction de, so i'm quite glad they allow me to. (:
the refractions and everything there are a simplified version of what we did in SPOC. refractions only need to take around less than 10 mins?
in SPOC, it takes like around 1 hour?

they explained to me that it is cos they only have 2 optometrists ( including the manager ) and 2 opticians everyday, and only 1 refraction room, cannot carry out the refraction too long or else the queue will be very long.
SPOC got so many year 3s and rooms so can afford the timing lor.

although at times, it will be a little boring when there are no customers,
but the staff will chat with me, killing my boredom. ;D
they are all nice people! (:

hope my days ahead will be as good as today. (:

anyways, anyone who wants to visit me, can visit me around 1+ 2+pm for lunch or 7+ 8pm for dinner, preferably dinner, cos u can wait for me after dinner till 9.30pm, when my day there ends to chill more, for movies or anything also can. ;D

my off days are on 16th march, 22nd march, 27th march and 30th march for the march month, so date me out on these days! ;D

yours truly ;

.Monday, March 10, 2008 ' 10:50 AM Y

-ended-

it's officially over.

i'm abandoning my blog, till the day i'm ready to blog again.
so don't visit it anymore my friends..

-ABANDONED-

yours truly ;

.Sunday, March 09, 2008 ' 5:07 PM Y

tiring..

i'm so tired..
both physically and emotionally..
i don't know why, i already slept as much as possible, i still feel so tired..
i feel like just collapsing.

it's especially tiring when i know that he is not even affected,
and that he don't even bother..

i feel like going out..
but no one is free to go out with me..
most of my friends are attached..
all those who are not are busy with working..
i wish i can work everyday..

hais..

my heart longs for you, my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you..

yours truly ;

.Saturday, March 08, 2008 ' 11:06 PM Y

she means alot to you.. *edited*

i actually prefer having attachment than staying at home recently..
cos keeping myself busy will occupy my mind with patients patients and still patients.
i hate it when there is no patient as those things will flood me again.

today is the last day of attachment at optometry centre..
monday will be going CWP to work at optical shop..
they said optical shop will be real boring..
hais.. i don't want..
if bored then means will have alot of time to think about things..
i want to be occupied..

i think i will miss attachment at optometry centre sia.
i will miss partnering with shi min and aik chai,
next time school starts no more partnering le, must individually check patients le, scared. ):
i will miss partnering with shi min cos michelle and her will always talk to me when i feel really bored, and i've lots of laughter with the 2 of them. ;D
i will miss partnering aik chai cos he so funny! haha. we always play Hei Bai Pei and Hai Dai when we're bored, and i always lose please. =/ but i'm starting to get better. hahaha. i also learnt alot of skills from aik chai sia.. how to do near add.. harmon's distance.. alot of things. (:

i will miss all my girls too.
1 month of optical shop attachment,
meaning 1 month i will be alone. ):
1 month i wont have laughter, cos my girls won't be with me to talk to me.
1 month i will have to eat lunch alone. ): SAD!
so anyone who is free, PLEASE VISIT ME OFTEN!

anyways, will be having training at HQ on monday,
and will be starting work at Capitol Optical CWP from tuesday onwards,
so friends who happen to go CWP,
VISIT ME!

i don't really feel like blogging about him today..
cos no matter how i blogged to try to make me feel better,
i still feel very bad..
he didn't deny she means alot to him when i mentioned it yesterday..
what is there left for me to say..

so yea..
today after attachment,
didn't feel like going home..
but no one is free for me..
so i still went home..
and of cos thought about everything again..

don't feel like blogging le.
update some photos when i'm working in optometry centre bah,
cos people have been nagging me to show them how ugly my short hair is and what i actually wear in optometry centre.
i like optometry centre toilet sia, so big and the mirror so long can see whole body.

so yea, this is how ugly i look in my short hair and lab coat.

and this is what i wore today.

wondering how attachment at CWP will be like..
scared..

yours truly ;

.Friday, March 07, 2008 ' 8:56 PM Y

开始就知道　我们是不会有未来　但是我还是在期待
直到那一天　我多么想你留下来　但是我也只能默默无奈

明明都知道　这将是最后的拥抱　双手紧紧将你环绕
所有的困扰　什么都不想去思考　倒在我的怀抱　就算末日也都不再重要

我曾经独自一人躲在街角默默哭泣　我真的无法控制我自己
你的影子不断出现在我脑海里　我不愿失去最爱的你

是不是就要让我忘记所有美好回忆　难道非要让我完全放弃
我的心早已被雨水冲的无法呼吸　才相信　才相信　爱是如此不容易..

yours truly ;

. ' 6:36 PM Y

love hurts..

i lied on bed at 11+pm yesterday..
hoping i will fall asleep before 12am..
but no matter how i tossed and turned, i was still wide awake.
couldn't stand it anymore,
smsed him a long message.

only to get hurting reply that i should be feeling good about this break up,
and that he thinks that i only need a companion not him.
and ultimately, he still sides her, no matter what i said, he still sides her,
no matter how i told him that she is the only obstacle to this relationship,
no matter how i told him if he had let their friendship fade away in the past, i would have trusted him more and we would have been much better,
no matter how much i said,
he still thinks i'm wrong.

all these only make me realised one thing..
she matters alot to him,
it's either he didn't notice it or he just does not want to confess.

i've had a hard time getting through today..
if we're still together..
today will be our 1 year 5 months..

i do not know why till now,
my whole mind and heart is still thinking of getting back together with him.
i do not know why till now,
he is still there,
in my heart.

but i know that there's no point in me thinking of getting back with him anymore..
cos no matter what, that obstacle will always be around,
no matter what, he will still refuse to let their friendship fade away..
so from now on..
i need to start letting him go..
i need to stop thinking about wanting him back..
i need to heal my broken heart..
but i know that no matter what,
he will still own a piece of my heart..

there is so much movies i want to watch..
but there is no one who can accompany me to watch..
i think i will have to forget about watching them..
L change the world..
P.s. I love you..
Sky of love..
10,000 BC..
Ah Long Pte Ltd..
Step Up 2..
hais..

how i wish i can boldly sing this song to him..

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

just know that as you left.. you took a piece of my heart with you..

yours truly ;

.Thursday, March 06, 2008 ' 6:50 PM Y

i can't stand it anymore..

i don't know i am only so affected by it till now.
i was feeling ok the first few days it was over.
but this few days, everything overwhelmed me..

i can't stand it..
i can walk nearly falling down.
i can don't remember things i was doing a minute ago.
i can just stare into midair and tears flooded my eyes when i'm in clinic.

till now, i still can't figure why..
i just can't figure out why he refuse to give in to me a little and not do those stuff he knows hurt me alot..
i just can't figure out why she is so important to him, that letting her fade away from his life is impossible.
i just can't figure out the reason he told me he loved me when he can't bear to be even a little stern to someone who obviously sets out to hurt me.
i just can't figure out why i fell for him in the first place..

I never saw it coming. I should have started running, a long, long time ago..

yours truly ;

.Wednesday, March 05, 2008 ' 3:10 PM Y

fragile..

sometimes people just listened to one side's story,

and assumed that the other side is definitely wrong.

they just started assuming things after that,

and put all the blames on that person who don't even have the chance to tell them their side of the story.

then people will start to insult that person and said all bad stuff about them.

then they blame that person for not doing things they want him/her to do.

i'm undergoing this now..

friendships are just so fragile, isn't it?

-------

i'm suffering right now.

i shouldn't have gone to tampines, thinking of settling things once and for all.

was at tampines alone..

asked him to accompany me go take his precious money,

only got replied back that he wants to go out with his friend, asking me to go alone.

took bus there, took the money.. decided to walk to the 168 bus stop to pass him the money.

walked past all those places..

his block.. the coffeeshop.. the park.. the stadium.. every of those places reminded me of the pasts..

can't control the tears..

reached 168, didn't see him, tried to call him, only to find out my hp's battery is empty.

continued waiting, see no signs of him, decided to borrow phone from stranger to call him.

and he said he is at TM..
told me to meet him at 168 bus stop, in the end he ran off to TM, i don't know why i'm treated like this.

passed him the money, wanted to take my clothes and throw away, he refused to let me throw.

in the end, he just took all my clothes back..

boarded the bus home and cried throughout the journey..

i don't want to go tampines anymore..

friendships and love are both hating me right now,

and i don't feel good at all.

yours truly ;

.Sunday, March 02, 2008 ' 11:36 AM Y

contented. ;D *edited*

;D

i'm becoming better, cos of my girls. ;D
my girls have been by my side everyday cos of attachment,
and they have been constantly cheering me up and telling me not to emo over that kind of bastard.
to think of it, i don't understand why i even emo about it in the first place. lol.
he is like so ugly ( everyone told me what they thought about him all along, lol. they didn't tell me in the past cos they scared i will be sad ) and his personalities sucks.
i don't even understand what makes me fell for him in the first place, i must be blind in the past.

lol. to think that he would actually thought i minded about that bitch's blog. lol.
it's like the most hilarious joke i have ever heard.
ohh please, i won't be bothered by flirts who blogged about their flirting experiences anymore le la.
like for what please! lol.
and she is like so stupid, lol, want flirt also find a better-looking guy to flirt la, why waste her time flirting with someone whose looks totally cannot make it.
i so stupid last time, she now also so stupid. HAHA.
i was affected by something else la please. LOL.
but i'm totally fine now. ;D

now is the time i should wake up, and treasure my friends more. ;D
friends are the one who are always there, friends will still be there when you are single.
i love my girls. (:

went out with sheena, fenni, ann and A ( later u will know why i named that person as A ) after half day attachment yesterday. ;D
we went to bedok and waited for A.
then A came and told us about A and B.
we chatted and ate cheese fries in kfc.. till around 4+.
A then received a sms from B's number about breaking up.
that sms was obviously sent by B's parents cos the way the sms is typed is what B's dad style is.
so A decided to go find B to clarify things.

ann has to go off first, so sheena, fenni and me went with A to B's house.
A knocked and asked for B to come out.
A then stopped knocking, sheena, fenni and me thought A cried so we went upstairs to find A.
when we peeped out from the staircase, we saw B's dad! he saw us too!
B's dad told A about B wasn't home and let A went in the house to check.
so A decided to wait at a void deck near B's house.
fenni have to go off first, so sheena and me accompanied A.
we chatted till around 9+, chatted about lots of things, felt very contented. (:

at 9+, B's dad came out from their house to drive his van to fetch B and B's family members back home.
jansen then came to join us.
we saw B after that, A plucked up A's courage to go talk to B's mother.
B's mother refused to let A talk to B, and promised A fake promises.
B's dad then did the most funniest thing, HE CALLED THE POLICE. lol.
B's mum asked sheena and me to go forward too to talk.
A insisted in staying on to clarify things although sheena and me tried to persuade A to give up cos police were coming.

a police car then arrived, and B's dad did another funny thing. lol.
he shouted at sheena and me, asking whether we still want to be involved too or not. LOL.
ohh please, B's mum is the one who asked us to go forward and he said we kpo want get ourselves involved. LOL.
A don't want us involved so A told us to stand aside.
A talked to the police.
sheena then reminded A to take A's ez links back from B.
and B's dad shouted at sheena asking whether she wants to be involved too is it. LOLLOLLOL. so funny! remind A to take back ez link also call want to be involved. HAHA.
in the end, everything was fine, cos the police found it hilarious too. lol.
we were thinking they must be rolling their eyes to be called out for this kind of small things.

A was told A is not allowed to contact B anymore, so i guess everything is over.
but it should be for the best bah.. cos A and B will continue to suffer if they want to continue.
jansen then drove A and me to the tampines' ocbc bank bus stop there to wait for my and A's buses home. ;D
i guessed i too long never take long journey bus le sia, lol, got car nausea after that please. lol.

was so scared when walking home and taking lift yesterday la!
cos my grandma told me to be careful cos someone met a thief in my row's lift a few days ago.
but luckily nothing happened. ;D

i'm contented with my life now. ;D
and i love my girls! (:
thanks for being there for me always! *HUGS*
i'm going the butter factory with my girls after attachment on tuesday!
they held this clubbing thing for me and maddie! to get my mind off things! and to meet maddie cos very long never catch up le. miss maddie so much please! ):
felt so touched! thanks girls!!! ;D
but shuhui can't go, cos she has attachment on wed. ):
people! please tag my blog when you got come read!
or else always so little people tag i no motivation to blog sia. LOL.

yours truly ;