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hew, my dearest friend..
i found out that i'm such a failure of being someone's friend.. why do i find out how important she is to me only when she left us.. why did i have to come to a point that i regret not cherishing her.. blame it on me for not coming online much and not reading much of hew's blog.. i found out some entries of hers are actually quite obvious in stating that she has been encountering problems leading her life on.. i'm such an idiot..
e other things tt happen in the wk are obvious like my family
I do not ask for acceptance. i ask for u to leave me alone. i ask for u to shut up. i really do not want to stay here anymore. do not ask me what's wrong my friends. if i want to, id look for u to tell u abt my probs. if u think ur the only one who cnat take it den its ur fing problem. cuz cnat take it anymore either. so much so t i dont think i shd go see jes ot sch tml either. this is called shit! dont u ever force me over that edge. there's only so much to my tolerance.
above are those obvious words she typed. aint they obvious..? how could we have missed it. argh...
hew.. the person who used to hang out with phy and me alot.. cheering us up with different ways she seriously thought hard of.. how could i have listened to my mum's nagging and thrown away the pretty pink rose she gave me to cheer me up.. how could i.. hew.. who shares my idoling of jay.. who always hide her problems so that she wont make her friends worried.. who loves to challenge herself to things we normally will be afraid to try for.. where are u..?
she looked so pale yesterday.. so pale that my heart ached the moment i looked at her.. she left us so suddenly.. to think that while i was arranging my neoprints, i even looked at the neoprints we took and thought about our happy times together the day she left us.. the thought that she would leave us didnt even cross my mind at all..
hew.. i miss u.. why did u leave us..
you'll always remain deep in my heart..
yours truly ;